The privilege of being a part of “I Remember Justine…” has certainly afforded me the opportunity to push the boundaries of my recovery in several ways. One uncomfortable moment was having to ask for a smaller role in the play because I had recently undertaken a big life commitment in going back to school and I did not feel I could devote the necessary time to the production. This was mortifying. I can’t do it all. I’m not perfect. But then I realized (with some prodding from Laura,) I am doing what I need to take care of myself and prioritize my life’s work. This was my mantra for several of the weeks the cast was rehearsing while I was home studying. I had to be reminded of this informed decision I made the other night at rehearsal. I felt really guilty not being more a part of the production. I had seen such growth in my cast mates I was so proud them. But what about me? What had I done to push my recovery in this process? It made me feel very sad. So sad I was in tears. Yet again I was comforted by Laura’s words. Look for my own recovery learning point: balance. Balance! Something I can take away from this experience. I need to continue to work on balance in my life so I can embark on a multitude of things I want to do at any given time and not feel boxed in by one commitment. It doesn’t have to be all or nothing. It doesn’t have to be me feeling guilty for doing what I was capable of doing in those moments. It’s about taking care of myself by having balance in my life. That’s recovery right there!
-Post by Melissa Franolich
Yes, I remember Justine, is a performance but it is not about the acting: it is about people who are in recovery coming together to create a play act in to foster growth of their own process: being in their bodies, getting connected to themselves through learning from the characters they play, connecting to each other, and the community at large.
It’s about standing before the community to say this is me taking a risk, doing something new or different that I couldn’t have done if I was deep in my eating disorder.
For all of us involved, we have has moments of fear in this project. I share this video with you, because it speaks to why we must do this show:
I hope you will join us as witnesses.
The cast and crew are busy and excited as we prepare for the big show! Rehearsals are action packed, and our brains are bursting with memorized lines! This author is truly learning the experience of incorporating recovery processes into theater with intensity and purpose. There is a sense of value from each others’ input and creativity as we work together to bring to life something this world has never seen before. Each character is driven with a back story and in depth meaning not just as a whole, but also line by line. Recovery is a life long journey and is never perfect. Our work, with the guidance of Laura, Dave, and Laurel, will hopefully inspire many and also show that no one is alone in their recovery.
THROUGH PERFORMANCE PRESENTS: I REMEMBER JUSTINE
Location: Mehlville High School
Date: Friday, November 7, 2014
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